NYAWA hidupKU...

Angin malam berhembus
Lirih dingin menyapa
Coba merasakan
Semilir kehadiranmu

Tuhan kutanya cinta
Kemana arah dan tujuannya
Bila memang berpisah
Mengapa maut yang pisahkan

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Aku memujimu hingga jauh
Terdengar syahdu ke angkasa
Rintihan hatiku memanggilmu
Dapatkah kau dengar nyawa hidupku

Runtuh jiwa ragaku
hancur berkeping-keping
Tangan dan kaki tiada
Berpijak di bumi lagi

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Kau menelanjangi diriku selalu
Lewat indahnya peluk kasih
Merangkul kalbu yang membelenggu
Dan kini tinggalkanku

*credit song NYAWA HIDUPKU by ADA BAND~~~~

aku memuji mu hingga jauh...dapat kah kau dengar nyawa hidupku~~~~ honestly i really2 like this song so badly. mungkin aku antara insan yang masih mencari nyawa hidupku . particularly there is an incident that make me lost my nyawa hidupku. i still remember way back in 2005 after my mum passed away, i felt into a 'EMOTIONAL DEPRESSION'. YA ALLAH, the feeling is so terrible, there is no day goes by without me crying. i feel the world betray me, everything i know is a lie, people around me are fake. everyday without fail i will cry before i go to bed. i become quite with people around me, i keep me to myself and i hardly smile. my study is also suffer from this depression, my grade was falling down it is because i busy crying rather than study. i also become ANOREXIC, i even take certain pill( ALL MY BFF CALLED IT DRUG) to make my brain think i'm feel full so i don't have to eat, and i manage to lose 15kg of my weight. But luckily i have couple of friends who stood up by myself and make me realize there is gotta be more to life. especially cik ctot, she was there from the very beginning of this. she witness all the 1000 liter tears that my eyes already shed. depression is very dangerous if u doesn't have a strong support system around u (i mean friends at least in my case). i suffer from depression for almost half a year, but after that i stood up and gain back my pride. YES, THE FACT THAT MY MUM PASSED AWAY will never be change. ALLAH still allows me to breath in this world is a BLESS that i should CHERISH. to pick all the broken pieces are hard enough let alone to patch it back, but life must go on. WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND ME ALONE, that is what i learn the most. sehingga kini, masih ada lagi separuh nyawa hidupku yang hilang...tapi aku rase dengan separuh yang ada ni pun dah mencukupi untuk aku meneruskan hidup ini...

"Tuhan kutanya cinta
Kemana arah dan tujuannya
Bila memang berpisah
Mengapa maut yang pisahkan

Runtuh jiwa ragaku
hancur berkeping-keping
Tangan dan kaki tiada
Berpijak di bumi lagi"

“To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.”

~ Brandi Snyder