MuRaH ReJEki...AMIN~~~MaRi berSYukuR Part 2...

~~~GOD WORKS IN A MYSTERIOUS WAY~~~

Alhamdulilah, sempena bulan yang mulia nie rejeki yang diberikan oleh ALLAH pun ada sedikit bertambah...sangat bersyukur ^_^ di kala poket semakin menipis dengan membuat persiapan hari raya dan segala macam mak nenek nye...bantuan2 kewangan seperti itu adalah sgt diperlukan ngeeeee...disamping itu aku pun ada juga membuat aktiviti yang boleh menambah RM dipoket nie..antara nye jeng..jeng..jeng...JUAL BISKUT RAYA.... ^_*

not in my wildest dream that i could sell cookies that i bake to people. rasenye ada entry yang lepas that i talk about my obsession towards baking. aku nie dari kecik memang dah di ajar untuk masak... that why i love to cook, but cooking in my definition is masak benda2 yang savory senang kata macam lauk2 and nasi and noodles... but definitely not all the cake, tartlets, kueh-mueh, cookies2 sgala bagai nie. tp last year aku terjatuh chenta plak gan dunia baking especially bake cheesecake n buat blueberry cheesetart n sgala mcm mak nenek la aku buat, tp mase tu tak terjatuh chenta lagi gan dunia baking 'cookies'. tp mentang2 nak puasa ari tu semangat nak buat biskut raya cam berkobar2 gitu...plan nye dah ada kete nie so leh bawak blk kampung so my mum x yah ler susah2 buat kueh nie...

tulah yang datang penyakit buat kueh raya nie...then aku nie lak kalo dah bake sumthing mesti bawak g opis mintak opinion org len sama ada benda alah yang di bake tu sedap or tak....then datang la idea akak kat opis tu suh jual... so itu yang susur galur nye camne aku leh terjual biskut raya nie... tapi aku jual 3 jenis jek, 1. almond london, 2. snow almond@salju(salju tu name 60an die ngeee), 3. sarang semut(nie jual gan rerakan terdekat jek)... tapi setakat nie si salju nie la sgt mendapat sambutan maybe coz biskut nie tak ramai org buat lg... skrg nie aku siang malam duk bertepung kat umah nie...coz i buat 1 man show la..sape nye yang nak tolong (x kan chokobie n debab kot heheh)...aku ler uli tepung, aku ler terap biskut, aku ler bakar, aku ler make up biskut tu n lastly aku ler yang susun biskut dlm balang....hehehe tapi puas ati kot penat leleh tu tapi tulah antara jalan yang ALLAH kasi tuk aku tambah rejeki bulan2 pose nie... jadi sgt bersyukur nie...AMIN~~~OH sebab aku duk tungang tongek buat sorg so aku xdelah amik order banyak sgt...kang ada aku jd cam drama citer bahulu tu kang..lawak giles citer tu (ct chantek n my sis know bout this drama...all of us laugh about it ngeee..)

so dengan duit bisnes comel2an nie at least leh ler tmbah skit2 RM kat poket nie ....so tersgat la bersyukur...x sangka pun sbnrnye...jd tersgt la betul juga GOD WORKS IN A MYSTERIOUS WAY...u will never know ... ^_^ okies chow xoxo... nak tdo dulu coz kang nak bertepung lg kat dapur tu....

AlhamDulilah....Mari berSYUKUR....

Ya Tuhanku, tolong ajari saya untuk bersyukur untuk semua berkat,

Bersyukur masih cukup makan dan berpakaian walaupun sederhana

Bersyukur masih punya kesihatan

Bersyukur masih punya rumah untuk tempat pulang dan bernaung

Bersyukur masih punya teman teman yang baik

Bersyukur masih bisa melihat matahari terbit setiap hari

Bersyukur masih bisa bernafas

Bersyukur masih bisa menulis…

Hari ini aku berpeluang untuk pergi berbuka bersama-sama kanak-kanak istimewa. Mereka terdiri daripada anak-anak yatim dan kanak-kanak yang menderita penyakit seperti kanser dan leukemia. aku berpeluang duduk semeja dengan 2 buah keluarga yang anak-anak mereka mengidap menyakit tersebut. sempat berborak dengan sebuah keluarga yang anak perempuan bongsu mereka mengidap kanser limfoma. penyakit tersebut dikesan ketika anak mereka berusia 5 tahun. sejak dari usia tersebut, memang mereka sekeluarga sering berulang alik ke hospital kerana anak mereka terpaksa mendapat rawatan berkaitan penyakit kanser tersebut. anak mereka sekarang telah berusia 10 tahun. sepanjang tempoh tersebut mereka telah berhabis berpuluh ribu ringgit dan penat lelah demi anak tersebut. si ayah sempat berkata, kesabaran memang menjadi teman terbaik untuk diri nya dan keluarga. si ibu pula mula berasa sebak bila mencerita kan perihal penyakit si anak kepada aku, terutama ketika mula menerima berita tersebut buat kali pertama. hati aku pun agak tersentuh sebenarnya. seawal umur 5 tahun telah menjalani 'chemotherapy', terpaksa duduk dan berulang alik ke hospital hampir setiap minggu. mendengar cerita mereka, aku bersyukur kerana masih di kurniakan kesihatan yang baik...

ini antara sebahagian daripada kanak-kanak tersebut, walaupun sakit tetapi mereka tetap tersenyum riang as if nothing is wrong with them...kids are miracle...MAY ALLAH BLESS ALL OF U...

YA ALLAH, aku bersyukur dengan kesihatan dan segala rezeki yang telah kau kurnia kan kepada aku sekeluarga...jangan kau jadi kan aku orang yang kufur dari nikmat mu YA ALLAH...AMIN~~~

ChAllengE n HopE n OpportUnity...Yoshhh!!!!

Today is a new start for something that going to be worth for the rest of my life. definitely going to work hard on. an offer that i would not going to turn off and miss it for the world. this is something that i actually dream of that i can do it someday or one day. not going to talk about what is the thing but i promise insyallah next year we will see if it would be a reality (dream...wish...hoping) or not ^_^

NYAWA hidupKU...

Angin malam berhembus
Lirih dingin menyapa
Coba merasakan
Semilir kehadiranmu

Tuhan kutanya cinta
Kemana arah dan tujuannya
Bila memang berpisah
Mengapa maut yang pisahkan

(1)
Aku memujimu hingga jauh
Terdengar syahdu ke angkasa
Rintihan hatiku memanggilmu
Dapatkah kau dengar nyawa hidupku

Runtuh jiwa ragaku
hancur berkeping-keping
Tangan dan kaki tiada
Berpijak di bumi lagi

Go to: (1)
Kau menelanjangi diriku selalu
Lewat indahnya peluk kasih
Merangkul kalbu yang membelenggu
Dan kini tinggalkanku

*credit song NYAWA HIDUPKU by ADA BAND~~~~

aku memuji mu hingga jauh...dapat kah kau dengar nyawa hidupku~~~~ honestly i really2 like this song so badly. mungkin aku antara insan yang masih mencari nyawa hidupku . particularly there is an incident that make me lost my nyawa hidupku. i still remember way back in 2005 after my mum passed away, i felt into a 'EMOTIONAL DEPRESSION'. YA ALLAH, the feeling is so terrible, there is no day goes by without me crying. i feel the world betray me, everything i know is a lie, people around me are fake. everyday without fail i will cry before i go to bed. i become quite with people around me, i keep me to myself and i hardly smile. my study is also suffer from this depression, my grade was falling down it is because i busy crying rather than study. i also become ANOREXIC, i even take certain pill( ALL MY BFF CALLED IT DRUG) to make my brain think i'm feel full so i don't have to eat, and i manage to lose 15kg of my weight. But luckily i have couple of friends who stood up by myself and make me realize there is gotta be more to life. especially cik ctot, she was there from the very beginning of this. she witness all the 1000 liter tears that my eyes already shed. depression is very dangerous if u doesn't have a strong support system around u (i mean friends at least in my case). i suffer from depression for almost half a year, but after that i stood up and gain back my pride. YES, THE FACT THAT MY MUM PASSED AWAY will never be change. ALLAH still allows me to breath in this world is a BLESS that i should CHERISH. to pick all the broken pieces are hard enough let alone to patch it back, but life must go on. WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND ME ALONE, that is what i learn the most. sehingga kini, masih ada lagi separuh nyawa hidupku yang hilang...tapi aku rase dengan separuh yang ada ni pun dah mencukupi untuk aku meneruskan hidup ini...

"Tuhan kutanya cinta
Kemana arah dan tujuannya
Bila memang berpisah
Mengapa maut yang pisahkan

Runtuh jiwa ragaku
hancur berkeping-keping
Tangan dan kaki tiada
Berpijak di bumi lagi"

“To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.”

~ Brandi Snyder

suddenly I FEEL SO SAD.......@_@

Looking back three and four years ago...waaaaa~~~~so many things happened. recently i read back some of my dairies... and certain unwanted memories pop out in my head. saya memang penulis dairi yang tegar, sepanjang usia saya meniti alam remaja dan kedewasaan. dairi adalah antara rakan baik saya untuk saya luah kan semua yang berlaku dan terjadi dalam hidup saya. i'm glad that i write everything that happened all this time. ceritera cinta dan persahabatan memenuhi coretan diari saya. membaca dairi sama juga seperti mengali kembali memori yang kita hampir lupa ia pernah terjadi dan wujud dalam hidup kita. ketika sedang membaca setiap helaian, saya terbaca coretan kisah yang membuat kan saya berasa sedih dan sayu. coretan ayat saya yang membuat kan saya teringat kembali peristiwa yang mengajar saya erti menjadi lebih tabah dalam hidup ini.

"kita tidak boleh paksa seseorang individu untuk suka pada kita, that is not right, jangan korbankan kebahagiaan orang lain semata-mata untuk kita bahagia...macam mana kita mahu bahagia dalam hidup kita, begitu juga lah orang lain. mesti ada sifat tidak sampai hati yek...setiap orang ada rezeki masing-masing. kalau kita kesian kan orang, orang lain pun akan kesian kan kita juga. kena ingat rules in life, 'what goes around come around'. jangan dendam...jangan dendam...jangan dendam..jangan cepat marah...jangan cepat marah...jangan cepat marah......"

that is taken from my diari, in year 2006 or more preciously 09.03.06 (thursday, 10.10am)... in year 2006 and 2007 corak penulisan saya banyak di pengaruhi oleh seorang blogger yang bernama 'RIANA AHMAD' gosh i miss her writing so DAMN BADLY. until now nobody can ever replace her as my fave blogger. she no longer blogging since 2007. i still remember the first page i will visit when i go to the cybercafe was her blog... DAMN i miss those time... read back my dairy prove that how her writing influence my life in so many ways...i wish i could be like her...RIANA AHMAD where are u?????? I miss ur blog so badly huuuuuu~~~~~~ u take care of your life..your words will always be remembered by YOURS TRULY-ME- x0x0

Mad CURVE~~~~~Aaaaaaarrrrggggg!!!!!

These girls look sooooo damn fine n hot...they have mad CURVE i must say( oh by da way i'm straight yeaaa hahahaha) especially hyosong, the girl greyish-purle hair... Damn she got the move n curve....demmit hahaha~~~~ so Dear ME~~~Get movin~~~~~~

p/s = ini adalah entry tuk men'jelouskan diri sendiri....ngeeeee~~~~~xoxo

AnaK Bulus Mummy~~~~

Nie die budak itam yang sakit piyot die ari tu... sian die kena pakai choker angkasawan... that day he had this stomach ache (how do i know???? i'm a mummy of coz i know...ngeeee) bring him to vet and doctor said mayb because of worm...so budak itam bucuk nie di beri kan ubat cacing n doctor bekal kan mummy die antibiotik so leh kasi makan ubat kat umah...tp budak itam bertuah nie mmg cukup liat nak makan ubat...die akan kuar kan saliva die bnyk2 so it would be difficult for his mummy to open his mouth (clever yea~~~) punya la mummy nie calar balar kena cakau gan anak nie...tp coz sayang nye pasal nak buat camne...meh la gigit mummy nie asal anak mkn ubat yekkk... (mood mummy berpoket nipis yg mithali heeeeee~~~~) oh by da way mase g vet tu ada timbang berat budak itam nie...n guess what???? berat die turun nie..yeaaaaaaa~~~~from 7.8kg to 7.4kg.... waaaa~~~berhasil diet anak mummy nie..doctor said bagus n leh turun bnyk lg... berguna gak mummy abis duit kasi budak itam nie mkn AIMS DIET FOOD...

nie anak bulus mummy yg sangat cool yek 24/7, except kalo kena kejar gan pembuli d umah nie sape lagi kalo bukan budak itam gangster tu...(niat d hati nak men keja2 gan kakak tp, anak mummy debab nie x mau men kiddy games tu) kakak nie ( name manje die kakak ngeeeee..) lebih ske duk relax nak tgk suasana kat luar...budak debab sorg nie mmg manje tp pada certain org jek...she is not very expressive...die akan jadi expressive bila baru di ambil dari hotel pas kena tingal gan mummy kalo mummy outstation...tersangat ler manje cam dh xde bsk dah pastu...ari2 nak tdo gan mummy die kat atas katil (mcm dalam pic nie la..) slalu kena buli gan budak itam (coz mase budak itam kecik debab ske buli die..so i guess pay back time hehehe~~~) mase g vet ari tu pun doctor bekal kan ubat worn gak tuk kakak nie coz takut die pun kena gak...ngeeee tp kakak nie strong...so far sihat walafiat.... alhamdulilah

P/s = peringatan tuk mummy suzai...meh dtg tgk ank yekkk...sian dak itam nie dah lama x fetish kaki mummy suzai...n sian kakak nie dah lame mummy suzai x amik pic die posing ngeeeee ^_^ so kesimpulannye itu la pengarang jantung hati mummy nye... xoxo ....

Pop Ya CollaR....

ello everybody, welcome today to the wonderful world of U.

Now check it, you have two options you can eat it or throw it away...

See it's a shame that when you're working hard

doing well people hate you

yeah buying nothing else but the best for yourself they really hate you

yeah ya gotta live for you and no one else

don't let em make you feel like you're not being real

just live how ya wanna live you gotta do for you

(Dig that)

If you work hard play hard

(Dig that)

And do what you wanna do

(Dig that)

Just pop ya collar don't let what people say bother you

(Dig that)

You perpetrators I got something to say

(Whats that?)

You can eat it or throw it away

(Picture that)

You're just mad cause you're following in my tracks now can u dig that? Hey

[Chorus 2x]

Hey ladies

(Yeah)

Hey fellas

(Yeah)

You know you're doing good cause they're jealous

they wanna hate you cause you're a go-getter pop ya collar

don't let 'em sweat ya

You can see me every week hanging out with a different girl sitting next to me

cause I'm not about to settle down right now

I gotta be free some of y'all fellas might be jealous but y'all know that don't faze me

I just pop my collar tip my hat and turn my backs on the ones who hated me

(Dig that)

Never going home alone

(Dig that)

If she follows then you know it's on

(Dig that)

She gets the beeper not the cellular phone

(Dig that)

I let her know I won't be around for long

(Dig that)

To all you haters I got something to say

(Whats that?)

You can eat it or throw it away

(Picture that)

Stop hatin, wishin, waitin, anticipating for my heat to fade

[Chorus 2x]

I break my neck for the things I get

so much sweat just so I can get that check

and I'm not gonna let nobody bring me down (Nobodys gonna steal the crown)

because I eat good I live good, I rock good, my life good

if you got a lot and you're working for it pop ya collar don't be afraid to show it

p/s = this song is dedicated to me n all the people who being oppressed by people around them just because people like us do our job n work better then them.... but its true we got 2 options, either u want to eat it or throw it away...why bother??? this song is soooo suitable for me n all my friends who face this kind of situations. 'pop ya collar' in this song means just keep ur head high n don't bother with people like that... i really like this part

"See it's a shame that when you're working hard

doing well people hate you

yeah buying nothing else but the best for yourself they really hate you

yeah ya gotta live for you and no one else

don't let em make you feel like you're not being real

just live how ya wanna live you gotta do for you"

and also this part

"You know you're doing good cause they're jealous

they wanna hate you cause you're a go-getter pop ya collar

don't let 'em sweat ya"

so people like me please don't bother with people like them... just pop ya collar..keep ur head high n be real with urself... n don't let 'em sweat ya ^_^ xoxo...

Hari Merah YANG Marah~~~~ @_@

Pagi tadi mood adalah sgt x brape nak baik sangat di sebab kan oleh orang2 n keadaan sekeliling yang membuatkan aku rase nak pijak n picit orang yang x reti tanggungjawab die sendiri. it all started at 8.15am, aku tggu macam tunggul kayu kat class tu n when it was 8.30am only 3 out of 17 students turn up. Niat suci murni nak buat mock listening terase mcm x berbaloi, cepat jek aku edar kan soklan listening yg betul dh xde mock2 nya...hampeh btl. kite nie punye la kesian ke dieorang nie n nak tlg all of them do better in that listening test. but since dieorg pun couldn't care less why should i????? dr 8.30am until 9 somethin only 7 of them turn up..so i made up my mind those who absent will get straight 0 unless they have MC..which i doubt they have @_@ then pastu next class at 10.15am...suppose start at that time but it end up start at 10.45am..man~~~~ does anybody know how to look at their watch nowadays.... again presentation cam hampeh n sampah for certain group...they don't do presentation but i think only reading infront...gosh anak2 all of u can do better than that coz i know u can tapi penyakit M-A-L-A-S nie mmg bahaya la.... pe lagi lady in red nie pun mengamuk la lagi..aku rase leh kena blood pressure aku cam nie tau...

Gosh memang kena ari nie pakai baju n tudung merah menyala coz ari mmg la ari MERAH YANG MARAH~~~~~~

OH!!!!!!! weekEND~~~~~ ^_* mari MAKAnnnnnnn

Kuar berdating wif my partner in-crime...cik ctot. after we finished attending the students convocation, we straight away went to the curve n ikea... waaaa~~~ tersangat lah ages nye tak jejak kaki kat sana. because both of us puasa that day so as soon as we arrived, we go and solat first because its already magrib. then straight away pergi cari makan...both of us nawaitu datang just for makan only... n dalam ati ada 2 choices, either pergi makan at the apartment or Italiannies (yummlious ^_^ ) but at the end decide untuk makan at Italiannies ...but i didn't snap many picture ( maybe because we r DAMN hungry kuikui...)there except my fave mozzarella bread or sumthin i forget the name...

i ordered as usual 'roasted chicken n basamic glaze' n cik ctot ' clam spaghetti' since 'mussel spaghetti' habis huhuuu~~~ tersgt kami ini berpuas ati coz portion die bnyk n smpi x terabis mkn ayam aku si antu ayam ini hehehe.... ^_^ sambil mkn we talk n try to catch up with all things that happened latelly...once in a while both of us need this kind of therapy...this is what 'REAL FRIENDS' should do..doesn't matter how busy we are i'm going to make sure we will have this kind of therapy session ^_^

After mkn i went to pet safari to buy dak2 gumuks kat umah tu nye foods..punya ngadanye anak2 bulus nie, coz dah tak mau mkn AIMS yg bese tu lah. so mummy yg mithali yg berpoket nipis nie pun membli la AIMS mix cat foods...anak2 nye pasal xpe la mummy pejam mate jela (tp dlm ati menangis waaaaa~~~~~ hehehe) then pastu tekak nie trase nak minum caffeine...then go la lepak la kat kedai kopi 'bintang' nie~~~~waaa lega nye tekak....

then on the way balik buat gan keje mungkar sblum nak pose nie..kang dh pose cam berslh la plak (mcm la kalo x pose x berslah uweksss hahaha...)

then smpi umah trase lapo plak (mane x membolat nie waaaa~~~) seb baik bli sushi sodap kat ikea tu...soft shell crab sushi n salmon...sodap btl mst x pena miss bli kat sane...

so that is the end of our weekend makan therapy session..x leh buat slalu coz akan membolat gan HEBAT BERKRIM nye ngeeeee~~~~~ xoxo ^_^

Plan perancangan idup ^_^

Last weekend i went to an induction program handle by my company. At first punya mmg menyumpah2 tak mau pegi sana. It is because i was super freakin busy that week especially with quizzes and so many other things. the venue was somewhere over hulu mane ntah... lets skip everything except the part on this 1 night that we had an activity more or less like a flash back and looked back what we had done and experienced through out out life until time of speaking that night. they gave us this piece of paper so we can jot down everything that we remember about our life, started from age 1 until now...mind u i'm about to turn 2? this year....(still young though ngeee...) gosh from that piece of paper i can see my journey in this world... it quite impress n shock n amaze n sad at the same... all this time so many things happened. all the happiness n sadness just start flashing in my mind... then i realize something, life is just toooooooo freakin short man~~~~ really-really short. feel like yesterday i experienced all that memories.

after that the instructor asked us to fill in the remaining empty space from our age now to the age of 70 years old and plan what we want to do with our life... gosh sangat la terasa ber'ambitious terlampau diri ini... tapi i can only manage to make a plan for myself until 10 years from now jek... more then that i terasa tak termampu (Ya ALLAH sesungguh nye ko maha mengetahui) coz walau hanya nak plan pun aku rase tak mampu...diri masih rasa sangsi with my own self nya capability... and 1 thing bila kite list down kan everything that we plan sume nye manis2 n baik belaka but i know when it come to reality it is NOT as SWEET n NICE as i plan it to be~~~~~ hurmmmm..... but insyallah i will try my best to make all that a reality..

UNTIL that moment i realize life is just a piece of PAPER in front of my eyes... and life is just tooooooo freakin short ^_^ ..... xoxo