aS wHeN we ThouGht....???

There is a time when sometimes when we thought we can't go on with our life when something bad or unpredictable happen to us... especially when we lost something or someone that so precious and dearest to us. When that misfortune event happen our mind will totally be at a state of panic and shock, and our heart will be sad. As when we thought we can't go on to face life, as if things around you will stand still and grief along with you. As when you thought what am i going to do after this??? What is going to happen??? Is it going to be the same again??? Am i ready to start all over again??? Thousand and thousand of questions will pop out of your brain...

As when we thought that is the end of everything and your world will crumble together with the sadness. Suddenly you realize you still breathing, the world still keep turning around and you still need to live in it (as you will find it as the most painful part). As when we thought we are not strong enough to bare all the suffering and our heart bleeding inside. And suddenly you also realize nobody bother about it and they don't care, they have their own affair to deal with. They couldn't be bother with you.

Then you start to recruit you heart to be strong, train your brain to start thinking, start to be-friend again with your senses and having heart to heart talk with your soul. Then suddenly you will realize, things are not that bad. You can face this, life is all about losing and gaining something through out the journey. Every new beginning is some beginnings end. As when we thought we are not that strong try to look back at things that happened along the journey of our life. We might lose or gain something, we might say hello today and goodbye tomorrow to somebody, we might be sad and happy or we might be everything that life desire. But never underestimate your own power of surviving. So as when we thought....??? But at the end we will realize something. As The Almighty ALLAH said there is nothing happen that goes to waste. There is something behind everything.

*Note for myself, be strong because ALLAH knows the BEST for you.

(Oh the 2 picture above is being capture by me using my 3.2 megapixel phone only but after some enhancing of color and the not-so-professional technique of mine i think it looks nice ^_^ ngeeee~~~ look at the color of the sky and its refection in the sea water. This picture was taken at the beach in Labuan during sunset)

Down MEmoRy LaNE...

Guess today where do i go????? hehehe..down to the memory lane...(sound soooo ages la plak kuikui)... saje2 jek go back try to experience back life during study dulu...rindu sangat all the memories...tuk anak2 yang gah study sekarang nie, tolong hayati masa study anda...bila dah keje nie...tak sama tau dengan waktu study dulu...responsibility dah makin banyak n berat...dulu masa study u can make a mess n get a way wit it but now..it's a BIG NO NO....

sempat snap pic my room mase study dulu...waaaaa~~~~rindu sama itu bilik, sangat2 rindu itu memori jugak...sebelah my room tu bilik cik ctot ngeeee..(inseparable..yea i know) dulu mase study tahun akhir aku rent bilik sorang means aku jek la dlm bilik tu...best duk bilik sorang nie..ko nak buat pe pun xde sape nak bising...besepah ker kemas ker...xde sape kisah.... oh cik nisah slalu come to my room n tumpang tdo (slalu penakut die nie)...n we will chit chattin until tertdo..(sak rindu ko nie)...ada masa nye aku gan cik ctot akn membuat tayangan premier 'Gol n Gincu' or 'Legally Blonde' bile kiteorg frust or slalu jumpe jantan2 yang biol dalam idup kitorg...ngeeee~~~bilik aku ada pc n sound system yang sangat power (subwoofer gitu) cik ctot slalu lepak bilik then bukak lagu kuat sampai 1 paras tu bleh dengar, then bile kuar bilik jek banyak ler notes suh jgn memekak ktorg dapat hehehe.... ohhhh~~~wat a memory... ^_^ kalo ktorg sume nak melepak kadang aku, cik nisah n cik june akan lepak gak bilik cik ctot...kekadang kalo cik ctot br balik dr kramat die slalu bawak makanan..so ktorg mencekik la kat bilik die...hehhe.... waaaaa~~~~ to ALL THE MEMORIES, I MISS U Soooooooooooooo MUCH.... xoxo ^_^

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. ~From the television show The Wonder Years

Leftovers in their less visible form are called memories. Stored in the refrigerator of the mind and the cupboard of the heart. ~Thomas Fuller

ermmm....BETUL ker????

Ermmm...g makan la kat sushi king smlm, ahad ler kn...saje jek jenjalan kat alamanda wit cik ctot n cik nabila. dah penat jenjln nak ler g makan...then t'gerak lah nak g mkn kat sushi king..ages nye x mkn situ..dulu mase study cik ctot n cik june kemaruk mkn situ then dah keje nie tekak dah agak kembang gak ler nak makan kat situ lagi...huuuuu~~~

duk belek2 menu tergerak la plak nak mkn unagi gan nasi tu..then budak waiter tu leh kate lak..kak kalo yg tu ada alkohol la skit coz unagi tu masak gune alkohol..ermmmm..ktorg macam terdiam jap..sjak bile sushi king masak letak alkohol kat unagi die???? then unagi sushi tu pun x leh mkn ker coz marinate unagi tu gune alkohol ker???? ermmm...cik ctot dh terkesima...die siap kate dh berpuluh2 unagi dh die sumbat kat prut die sjak mule mkn kat sushi king nie..ngeeee~~~~ puzzle jek ktorng...

so sbb aku malas nak puzzle2 aku order ker ikan saba nie ha...bleh la tahan..tp ikan saba yg koreang food kat mid valley tu lg sedap kot n lagi xtra bapak ikan saba ngeeee~~~ okies la chow...perlu bergerak ke LCCT nie....oh ckp pasal LCCT ktorg dah mule buat plan tuk holidy next year gak...best2..nak carik tempat yg bnyk muzium...ktorg mabuk muzium...entry len nnt aku citer pasal muzium kat labuan n brunei laks, kan ari tu aku g berholiday tu heheh..material n pic tuk ceritera dh ada...mase jek xde tuk tulis kat sini...chowww...xoxo

kenYANG la nieeee~~~AMIN

waaaa....ari nie sangat la alhamdulilah KENYANG dengan rejeki2 yg ALLAH kasi...ALHAMDULILAH~~~~ nie la kronologi journey for food ktorang ari nie ngeeee~~~ me n cik ctot start all the food journey at 11am... we grak to Ampang for cik ctot nye kazen nye umah..die buat aqiqah anak n after bace yasin n all we menyantap ler...ada macam2 gak nasi wit bermacam jenis lauk pauk then ada roti jala siap bagai...oh lontong n nasi impit kuah kacang pun ada nie...waaaa~~

x lame pastu grak lak g putrajaya umah sedara cik ctot gak... tp on da way dr kl ke sane jem yg agak hebat, nyesal x hekot highway putrajaya yg jauh tu waaa~~~ umah atok nie mee soto die sodap ngeeee~~~ada laksa gak (knowing me..aku x makan laksa lor..) ada gak spaghetti, cucur udang, roti jala pun ada gak lagi...prut mmg macam nak meletopsss~~~oooo ujan time nie tp ktorg redah gak...

dengan ujan yg ada lebat ktorg grak lak g sri putra umah kak zuhrah...kawan keje ktorg...umah die sbnrnye from 12-4pm tapi duk sbb duk sebok ke hulur ke hilir ktorg sampai umah die kul 5 lebey...hehhe seb baik ada lagi org yang datang...(kak zuhrah siap ugut kalo x dtg putus kawan nie..kuikui...comey jek.. kalo x ugut pun ktorg dtg ler kak ^_*) kat umah kak zuhrah ktorg sbnrnye mmg dh x leh nak menyumbat prut nie lg ....tp mengigih kan diri gak..sian tuan umah penat tempah katering... nasi beriyani menu die...sedap nasi n lauk nye..ada lemang gak tp mmg dh x leh masuk dah...duk la borak2...borak2 nye borak sampai ler 6 lebey...bergegas ler grak balik coz mlm nye pun ada gak lagi open house nye ( leh bayang kn x...huuuuu mmg ari tuk mkn sungguh)

sampai umah kul 7...kedebuk gedebak , solat siap sume kul 7.45 truz grak ke KLGCC, nie open house yang d buat oleh family abg ipar cik ctot. ...bayang kan x sempat tukar baju pun ngeee~~~ sampai kat sane pun dah kul 8 lebey...sampai jek kak un kakak ctot tegur naper x tukar baju ngeee~~~..sume org tny...abg khairun, abg ipar cik ctot pun perli die gak coz x tukar baju (rasional nye naper sume org tau ktorg pakai baju siang td coz, siang nye ktorg g beropen house gan mereke2 juge ngeee~~~) kat sini lagi ler raja segala open house..macam2 ada...ktorg yg dah agak surrender nie pun menjamah2 lah menu2 yang ada... pas puas posing2 sane sini...kul 9 lebey ktorg pun mengundur kan ler diri... bayang kan 4 tmpt dlm 1 ari...mmg murah rejeki nie..AMIN..... misi selepas nie ialah...... (fill in da blanks..cik tim dah sound dah ngeeee) daaaa..xoxo

NoTHIng BEtter~~~NOthing BettEr ThaN yoU!!!!

credit for the clips to hohoemi in utube..n brown eyed soul for the song...thanx yea~~~

been listening to THIS ALL DAY.... ngeee, nothing better...nothing better than YOU.... (luv..luv is all over the air~~~~waaa...dreaming...) shweet giles..nie leh buat lagu potong kek mase kawen sok wawawa~~~brangan x bleh bla..ntah berape juta banyak nye ntah lagu kawen aku nie...pastu nak nak mampus nak cakap kat mak nak bukak lagu koreang mase time kawen..buang tebiat (tp tu majlis aku so ske ati pengantin ler kan..ngeee~~~duhhhssss perasaan btl) lagu nie dengar mase khun appa sang it to vic omma...waaaaa~~~meh ler sesape nyanyi lagu nie tuk aku meh.....udah ler perasaan nie....chow..xoxo

Damn BORED at LibRy...tHank GOD 4 KhuNtoRia..weeee~~~

spend day again at library, but when bored-doom start to attached and mate semakin mengecik n kpale smakin tepu hehhee.... mari kite tinggal kn cik dear darling lappy n membuat aktiviti ini...so nie la activiti yg d laku kan....

nie la ha..g makan bubur kat bakery bawah tu dekat gan library tu..sodap bubur die, dulu mase buat degree aku slalu mkn bubur nie coz sgt ekonomi murah n kenyang (maklum lah duit x brape nak ada mase stdy nie ngeee...) tp skrg nie sgt berkembang dah bisness aunty n uncle nie cos mcm2 menu dah ada dah..dulu cume bubur n roti2 semata, tp sekarang nie dh ada cake2 yang enak n ada kebab siap bagai...aunty n uncle nie sweet jek, dh d ambang usia bersara dah tp maybe they do this because of minat...next time kalo g lagi nnt aku amik pic decor bakery die lak..sgt la european decor coz kalo tgk pic2 yg letak kat situ ada gak pic aunty n uncle nie jenjln over the sea...hehehe

pastu nie satu lg..aku rase kalo campk kat padang pasir pun sempat bershopin gak kot kuikui... sempat sambar 3 helai cutey baju..hahha kat sini bese lah aku rase sume U kot mst ada org jual2 baju2 kat community center die kn..kat sini pun same jek..murah n cantik2 jek...tangan kurita ku kembali beraksi ler gamak nye...

last but not least yeaaaaaa~~~~bukak utube layan KHUNTORIA, nie layan 5 jam pun mate segar jek..cis x aci betul la... nie my latest obsession nie... hidup KHUNTORIA... they look soooooo shweet 2gether...i am shipper now...but skrg rase cam dah terminat gan ADAM couple gak..thanks to KHUNTORIA as well... then despite all this kena la jgk tgk buku n journal smuler...dushhhhhh~~~~~ xoxo

i LEARN from the BEST... ngeeeee~~~

i learn from the best, i learn from you...mcm lagu sape ekk nie???? Whitney Houston... hehhee~~~ kadang2 ada gak benda dalam idup nie baik or x baik tp kite leh gune pakai gak dalam idup....aku ada lah blajar 1 benda nie...n aku rase benda ada gak gune nye time2 macam skrg nie..ngeeee~~~~ sangat berterima kasih kerana ada gak sudi mengajor benda nie kat aku..ngeee~~~stelah melihat keberkesanan nye benda nie aku rase ada agak berbaloi untuk men'try benda nie...hehehe~~~can't wait to do it ^_^ serious benda berkesan tau..coz org yg slalu buat benda memang pro...aku scara tidak langsung tlah terbelajar dah... yosh arigatou neh... akan mencube nye dari skarang..mase taip benda alah nie pun dah mule dah...weeeee~~~~wish me luck xoxo... ^_*

ME n JoUrnaLs N BookS We aRe TangO-ing....

ari nie merajinkan diri yg pura2 malas nie ke library waaaaa~~~~sgt teruja gan diri sendiri nie.... meh tengok sini pe yg kite perlu kan ketika ke perpustakaan...hehhhe

1. kite kena bawak beg la tuk simpan brg2 personal ngeeee....

2. jgn luper H20, benda nie penting nieeeeee.......kering tekak kang ^_^

3. sgt Penting lg nie...dear darling lappy lor...kalo nak buat internt research so bnda comey nie kena la bwk...

4. bawak ler novel yg nak d research kn tu..kang duk melopong lak..

5. nie die ubat mengelak gantuk heheh..sila bawak headphone kalo x nnt zzzzzzz......

6. last but not least bawak ler notes tuk tulis2 hehehe... ^_^

ye tuan2 n puan2 sekian saje....oh en.thesis master ku...cpt la anda siap tuan nye badan dh macam x berapa nak larat dh nie....waaaaaa~~~~~xoxo

Mengopi SamBiL meReflex meH~~~

yesterday duk g mengopi wif cik ctot, kiteorg kalo tetibe terhingin br la g mengopi nie coz we are not a coffee addict (kekadang heran gak org leh g mengopi tiap2 ari nie...x pening la kpale dieorg nie....ngeeee)

dah sambil mengopi nie melepak la jgk n borak2 n mereflex lak gamak nye (x leh gune ayat mengumpat nie hahhaha...sensetip) borak2 nie, termasuk la plak ke dalam topik mengenai friend and friendship... makin la kite kenal dunie nie makin macam2 jenis makhluk tuhan la yg kite jmpe kn. baik dari yg mmg ikhlas nk kawan gan kite coz mmg nak kawan, n ada gak jenis nak kawan gan kite coz ada bnd yg die nk korek gan kite, n ada gak kawan yg depan kite baik tp kat blakang d stab nye kite macam dh xde besok...huhuu n bla bla bla la... kawan yg mana kah anda tepuk dada tny la otak...hokey~~~

Aku nie mmg la ada ramai kawan n the last thing that i want to do is to hurt my friend..tp a long the way kita nak ke..kita x nak ke ..we WILL HURT PEOPLE, that is a FACT that we can't AVOID, sesape yg sangke die x pena bt silap tu aku ingt die mst hengat die MALAIKAT kotttt... cause tell me mahkluk tuhan mane yg x make a mistake kan (ayat cliche nieee)... But what i treasure the most is when i make a mistake PLEASE TELL ME...i'm not a MIND and ACT READER that can read your mind and your action towards me...if you smile at me i guess u like me (mane la i tau dlm ati u ape??? menanah ke..ikhlas ke...u sorg je yg tau) i mahkluk tuhan yg xde 6 senses la...kalo ada dh lame i join sarkas jadi yg tukang bace mirror ball tu..

ntah la n lagi 1...kalo dh kawan tu aku x mau la jadi SEASONAL friends...pada definasi aku seasonal friend means time ko rase nak keep in touch gan member yg sorang nie...macam dh xde besok la 24/7 la ko duk berkepit jek gan member yg sorg nie..tp bile rase cam dh x season dh nak berkepit gan member sorg nie...okies chow bye2.... pelik jek org mcm nie... tp maksud aku bukan la kena berkepit 24/7 tp at least u know la kan.... 4 me no CONTACT means THAT FRIENDSHIP WILL HEAD TOWARDS DOOM-LAND~~~~Sayonara.... TO my friends i may have your friendship but i don't OWN you...u are free to do what ever u like... but in that FREEDOM both of us must know how to make that FRIENDSHIP work out.... DESPITE everything i TREASURE all my friends the MOST in my LIFE... AND if you REGARD ME as your FRIEND i HOPE, YOU will DO THE SAME THING as well... Muah~~~~xoxo

FRIENDS I LOVE YOU ALL....

(CTOT,NISAH, JUNE,VEEN,DIKPO,KAKPO,LIZA,LINDO,MOR,H.HO,YAM,ZAM,CTCHANTEK,CAMMY,RAFI etc....list goes on n on o on.....)

Rakan Classic...Muah Babe~~~

oh b4 that..meh cite skit nape muke sensor...kn mate ketumbit ari tu so solekkan x dramatic so x mau ler tunjuk muke hehehe...(pompuan mentel aku nie...ngeee) nie la budak 2 ketul (abaikan pic dak kecik montel gebu kat tepi tu...anak buah lindo nie..comey dak nie sbnrnye hehehe..) rakan classic ku.. walaupun classic tp sgt classy hehhee... LIZA n LINDA nie la 2 orang mahkluk tuhan yang aku kenal dr kecik smpi ler la nie ha...masing2 dh beso panjang...sorg dh KAWEN, sorg lagi dh BERTUNANG, n yg YOURS TRULY nie ... (fill in da blank ngeeee) nie pic latest ktorg ler, amik mase g umah terbuka luas si lindo nie (tu name manje aku kasi die) sodap mak die buat soto n mee sup....tiap2 tahun umah wajib kalo g raya mst umah LIZA, LINDO, MOR, HWANG HO...hehehe... sayang pic beraya gan MOR n HWANG HO lupe nak amik... dieorg nie la my RERAKAN CLASSIC...walau pun aku sorg jek duk jauh merantau kat sini..kalo blk JAYBEE muke2 nie la yang aku nak sesgt jumpe...muah rerakan CLASSIC KU...xoxo

PosT-ShoppIn RayA....apaKAh????

oh i just when back with my nieces goin out for some jalan2. it's been a while since i went out in Jb, miss this place soo much (sometimes la... ^_*) Went to Holiday Plaza or HP, lame giles tak jejak kaki kat sana...winduuuuuuuu..i used to work there kat Guardian dulu pas abis study kat UKM...a good memories huuuuuuu~~~~ i like hp because die ada banyak kedai2 kecik yg sell baju yg comey2...the thing bout me is that i don't mind about brand... i prefer benda yang xde brand langsung tp cantik n murah..n kalo i nk bli benda2 branded i make sure i btl2 bli yang branded coz i don't do fake thing... (no offence ekkkk....oppssss) ^_^ oh so today aku gan jayanye tlah meng'grab baju2 yg comey2 kat sane...4 me comey la bnd tu...ada 5 psg bj..tp bile amik piccy cume 3 jek yg nmpk chantek dlm pic so meh aku ltk 3 jek la ekkk....sila tonton...

nie sgt2 la comey nye....pokko dot n ada reben kat depan...drooling...

this one, sgt ler lacey n girlish hehehe...cik ctot ske yg nie..

Nie Plak sgt accentuate bdn..tp mmg kena keje kras skit huhuhu....chaiyok2

nie plak 2 org budak mentel yg teman kn busu die g shoppin....huuuuu~~~~pic pun nmpk mentel sesgt...^_* chow daaaa~~~~xoxo

Lebaran n LEmbaran yanG baru....

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin...

Selamat Hari Raya di ucapkan kepada semua umat islam di mana sahaja mereka berada...(terasa sgt bersopan....hehehe..) Sempena hari yang mulia nie, diharapkan kite sume dapat membuka lembaran yang baru dalam episod kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang. i believe there are friends of mine that going to face another NEW phase in their life after this lebaran... my DEAREST FRIENDS... I WISH you guys Good Luck with your new status after this..hope nothing will change with the friendship... CT CHANTEK luv ya, wish you GOOD MARRIAGE wit your dearest Saiful.... DIK PO luv ya as well, wish you a GOOD RELATIONSHIP wit your fiancé... and as for me..INSYAALLAH tahun depan jemput la datang umah....hahhha (poyo giles.... ^_*) AMIN~~~~~

P/S = sory pic raya adalah amat poyos...tatapan mata x dapat d berikan kerana mata ku ketumbit d pagi raya, tu yang mata kena separa pejam tu, kalo x akan terbonjol la ketumbit nya hahah...sakit wooo...dlm sakit2 tu pun ttp nk pakai eyeliner...x sggup i raya tanpe eyeliner hahhaa... dgn ada nye eyeliner nie...ia dpt menutup ke-tumbitan mata dgn kadar 70% hahahaha.....lawak jek... (oh entry kali nie x warne2 coz ntah pekena gan blogspot nie ntah..penat aku kaler2 kn die tp bile publish hilang la plak kaler nye....double poyo nie tau...)

SodAp GILES....GilER SusHi...

For this entry the pic will tell EVERYTHING...Lets watch ^_^

Aksi pantas cik ctot d ikuti aku Yours Truly kat blakang...bergegas nie kami hehehe.....

stelah bergegas smpi la ke tempat pojaan ati kami..hehhe....nie rupa ekkkk....sushi no ya...

dengan pantas tangan menjadi sotong kurita men'grab sushi2 yg ada....coz yg ada tggl skit je nie..last kopeks.... ^_*

hahhaa...nak tau x nape kami BERGEGAS n sushi tgl LAST KOPEKS..... IT IS BECAUSE.... kalo dh dkt kul 9pm lebey kedai sushi nie kan bt 50% sale for the sushi yg tgl belen2 tu hehehe..sbnrnye kitorg mmg CHEAPSKATE...even kalo ktorg cpt pun we will still wait 4 the 50% hahaha....

dan hasil tangkapan si tangan kurita pada hari ini...hehhe soft shell crab sushi (my personal fave..xde diskaun pun aku bli gak bnd nie...), unagi sushi (unagi die montek2 mmg berbaloi2...) ^_^

Secara kesimpulannye...sushi kat sini mmg A+, sodap bonar x tipu... dulu aku hampir2 bersara dr mkn sushi coz slalu mkn sushi yg x sodap..tp kalo mkn sushi kat sini ari2 pun xpe..(iyolah tu, pas tu kak jill marah pe kes???? tp pas mkn sushi nie mmg aku kena bertabah bt kak jill nye dvd, n berchentak sama abg dummie n kak yogieee....waaaaa~~~~~ best yg menjadi sengsara... hukhuk....